I’ve prayed 2 really hard prayers in my life. And I can tell you exactly where I was for both of them. One in college, one last week. The first one spurred a complete life-change (2016...you were a hard year) , the second one just really, really hurts. And as hard as this is to … Continue reading Hard Prayers and Holding Onto Things for Dear Life.
Last night I sat reflecting on several mistakes I made this past weekend. Several times I stepped out of the will of God, made comparisons, cursed under my breath, and then dwelled on it for a full 24 hours. That tends to be a pattern in life doesn't it? Messing up and letting it eat … Continue reading Soaking Up Some Undeserved Grace.
I feel like I go back and forth, and I'm almost ashamed to write about a bad day after my last post was about how good life is. The truth is...there's never a day that is the same. June has been tough. I have been running from task to task. Thinking "If I can just … Continue reading For when the days feel like months..
Today I'm sitting at my old favorite coffee shop drinking a latte and watching it rain. The most normal thing in the world. I did some homework, saw a friend, wrote a few letters, and found a pure barre sock that I have been so desperately searching for. Tuesday, just a normal Tuesday. But, I … Continue reading New Seasons, New Joy
About a month ago I finally broke my silence about an eating disorder I dealt with in college. You can read about it here. I can honestly say it was the scariest thing I've ever done. I almost backed out, I had the email typed asking my headquarters to hold off on posting and was … Continue reading My mess is my ministry.
A friend of mine picks a word of the year. I'd never considered it until July when I had a work retreat and my boss asked us all what our word for the year would be. It immediately came to my mind how I wanted to sum up my hopes for the year--grace. I wish … Continue reading Grace
Goodness gracious life is hard. And I've been dwelling in that. I've been beating myself down and making a mental list of all the things I'm doing to make this life harder. My heart hurts. It's aching constantly. Aching for something perfect, for something whole and wonderful and satisfying. I've been chasing it. Chasing satisfaction … Continue reading Misplaced Hope
I think I’ll take a cue from one of my favorite writers, Annie Downs, and say that I’m going through my “the broken crazy” phase right now. I look back on my last semester of college and I see so many irrational decisions, so much money spent, and so much running from life. And It … Continue reading Valleys, peaks, seasons and my broken crazy.